Monday, November 24, 2008

journal: who i am, how to let go of (someone else's) fear, which dreams i believe are "worthy," inhibitions. action.

This post is from Owl's Daughter, a blog that I frequently visit.

One’s destination is never a place,
but a new way of seeing things.

-- Henry Miller

What a perfect card for one of the busiest travel weeks of the year!

The Eights of the Tarot are about abilities, self-directed action, and moving ahead. And of course, Wands are about fire, action, growth, and energy. Here we have a powerful image of eight Wands, flying like arrows, all in alignment and balance. The Wands are approaching the Earth, so the Fire is finding its goal.

As people travel this week for the Thanksgiving holidays, this seems a most auspicious card, particularly those who may be flying to their destinations. And besides literal travel, if you've been experiencing other blocks, particularly in communications or creative projects, the Eight of Wands indicates a sudden opening that can clear away the hindrances that may have been frustrating you.

Arthur Waite describes this card as the Arrows of Love, so this is a fortunate card for beginning or deepening a love affair, with proposals offered and accepted. And as this card is associated with Mercury in Sagittarius, perhaps you are in the midst of a situation that requires (or is the result of) rapid information being distributed.

If there is a goal you are aiming for, you are fast approaching its completion. But it would not be surprising if you are also finding yourself a little too busy right now. Simplifying and streamlining will do wonders for your energy. This is not the time to be distracted, but to put all your energy towards your most important priorities. Serendipity and synchronicity are working in your favor, so pay attention to coincidences and luck.

The Eight of Wands points out that life may be speeding up, but if you can stay focused, there is much that this can offer you. Just remember to be clear about your intention and what the goal you desire really is.

Take aim, and throw all your energy into the process, for these are the arrows of good fortune and success is in the air.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Randomness via The Flaming Rose

The writer of one of the blogs I visit, The Flaming Rose, was recently tagged to write 6 random things about himself and invited anyone else who'd like to play to join in.
Here's some random info about the Conn.

*Image found at Jaunted

1: I love public transportation.
I first fell in love with graffiti riding the train through Chicago. I think this was the start of my life in art. Some of the most significant experiences I've ever had have been on city buses and trains.

2: I love to rearrange furniture.
The first time I ever moved a sofa I was 7.

3: I'm a voyeur. I love stuff like this: Normal Room.

4: I'm Learning to Love You More.

5: In college, along with friends Amy and Mark, I hosted a radio show called
Pebble, The Spoken Word Show.
We read Lewis Carrol's Alice in Wonderland, assorted poetry and played music ranging from classical to industrial.

6: I absolutely love winter.
I was born at 4 o'clock in the morning during one of Chicago's awesome snowstorms. My mom's car wouldn't start so she called the police who took her to the hospital in a paddy wagon.
Sometimes I wear flip flops in the snow.

*Image by Senor Codo

Saturday, November 15, 2008

The Music Section: Patty Griffin

*Image from Notorious Meg

Blue Sky
The farther I come the farther I fall
Whatever I knew it was nothing at all
Nothing at all, just making me small
Smaller and smaller
I fall back

Sooner or later with a view from the ground
Chasing the race and the races run you down
Sooner or later with a view from the ground
And a tear in your eye
You say baby why cant we fly
Into the blue sky
Into the blue sky

Be my singing lesson
Be my song
When I tell you I'm falling
You tell me I'm strong
You say trees have grown tall
birds have flown high
Higher and higher
Goodbye goodbye goodbye
I'll fly over a rainbow
I'll be sun kissed
Sail around the planet Venus
And send a long letter
Way back home
That says all that I know
All that I know is the blue sky
High in the blue sky

The farther I come the farther I fall
Whatever I knew it was nothing at all
Trees have grown tall, birds have flown high
Higher and higher
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

Self Doubt: Corrosiveness

The real questions are the ones that obtrude upon your your consciousness whether you like it or not, the ones that make your mind start vibrating like a jackhammer, the ones that you "come to terms with" only to discover that they are still there. The real questions refuse to be placated. They barge into your life at times when it seems most important for them to stay away. They are the questions asked most frequently and answered most inadequately, the ones that reveal their true natures slowly, reluctantly, most often against your will. -Ingrid Bengis

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Last night I went to bed pissed off and dreamed of dancing...

I've been trying to make peace with an event that recently occurred in my life: I was informed by one of my part time employers that I would be let go due to my intolerably bad attitude towards my job and my coworkers.


I don't know about you, but I have this tendency to share myself with the people around me. Sometimes that means I say things that qualify as an opinion or a feeling or an observation. I take this aspect of human life for granted. I expect it. I assume it to be an inarguable truth of living within a social structure.

I also take certain things for granted at work, such as my right to reform myself if for example during a review I am told by an employer that they would like to see A, B, and C from me.

I'm not an idiot, I don't walk around the workplace calling people names or making personal judgments about Fred and his choices. I don't run with knives. I don't hit people or call them stupid. I don't roll my eyes when my boss says she'd like me to get the cookies out of the oven before 8am. I actually consider my ability to play nice with others as an asset, I even put it on my resume. Barring violent or illegal activities at work I also assume that any other issue can be resolved through clear communication and dialogue.

I thought I was working for someone who believed this too. What gets me the most is not said employers obvious disregard for due process, which royally pisses me off, but her hypocrisy fucking kills me.

If you do not tell me what you need, what you think or how you feel about something that I do or say, how am I supposed to know it, let alone take any action in regards to it? What did I do that has been ongoing and serious enough to merit the end of my employment?

Saturday, November 08, 2008

I was bawling like a baby last night.
I can’t even articulate how proud I am.
Just grinning ear to ear like an idiot.
It’s even palpable walking down the streets,
it’s like we can spot each others happiness,
I’ve not experienced so much kindness
from and towards strangers in a long time.

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

"...reaffirm that fundamental truth - that out of many, we are one; that while we breathe, we hope."

What an awesome day! I am shamelessly inspired! Let us not go back to fear! Let us maintain this momentum! Do not go back to sleep. The work is only beginning and I say bring it on and let us do it with all the Love we have to give "...especially when we disagree."

Saturday, November 01, 2008